I am two days away from surgery. As to be expected, I have run the gamut in terms of emotions in the last few weeks. Mostly I am feeling anxious to just close this chapter of the journey and move on to the “recovery” phase.
I would be lying if I said my mind did not occasionally wander to darker places every now and again. In my opinion it is hard not to when you’re facing a brain tumor and a lengthy neurosurgery. Ultimately though I am confident in my surgeons and that I have done everything in my power to prepare my body and mind for the shock of surgery.
My worries are not for myself. They are all with my wife Jen and four month old son Odin. I worry about them having to brave the waiting room and the unknown for 10 to 16 hours at the hospital. I hope they can find comfort and confidence in this process.